My life thus far...

Okay here is post 2 in my blogalong with Effy Wild, sorry it is a bit late.
https://effy-wild.squarespace.com/blog/2013/8/2/blogalong-with-effy-230

Today I am going to talk about my heart. I am a serious dreamer, but I come from a past that isn't all roses. My mom had a stroke at the age of 32, which happens to be the age I am now. I was 9 years old when it happened, which happens to be the age of my oldest daughter now. The stroke left her left side parylised. I was her caregiver, and I have to admit I wasn't a good one, but who at the age of 9 could be a great caregiver? It turned into me being in more of the parental roll. I took her everywhere, we were bus bound, if she needed to go to the doctor's office guess who got to miss school? My mom and dad were never married, so I only saw him once or twice a year, sometimes I would go up for a week in the summer, but he lived like 3 hours away from us, so it wasn't very often. My mom's mom died a few years earlier of cancer. And her dad hardly ever came around so it really was just me, my older sister and my mom, but my sister never really helped. My mom taught me how to cook, I think I have surpassed her expertise a long time ago. My mom was not a healthy person, she smoked 2 packs of ciggerettes every day, she was an alchoholic. She ate unhealthy too. All she really did was sit and read her books or watch tv, or both. The tv was always on. I found out after she died that she was also very depressed, and just didn't enjoy life. I spent most of my teenager years very depressed, I felt trapped, and I had some unhealthy relationships with older guys, that did not help matters at all. It wasn't until I met my husband that I really began enjoying life. And then when I started having kids that I really understood life. I am so lucky to be alive today, there were many days growing up where I just wanted to give up, I am glad I didn't.